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My Life Song.

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I met a missionary once who told me that she keeps three type of friends close at hand.
A strong Christian friend that she leans and gleans from to grow, a friend at nearly the same level as her to challenge and be challenged by, and someone who needs Jesus to hone her witnessing skills.
I liked this - at different times they have been different women, but I have utilized this in my life.

Over the past years, I have been through a great many of life's trials and obstacles, joys, pains, deaths and births. All these have made me who I am today, but how I handled them really demonstrates to others- who I am. I have learned to pause, to pray and to study God's word so I become a better illustration of Christ. 

At age 52 I know this. I love Jesus and serve him, I am not ashamed of that. I love his promise to prosper me and I enjoy the life he has given me - not perfect - but it has such possibilities and love.
I have had to work on myself a lot. I have failed a lot - but alwa…
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Finding Peace Unexpectedly

Sometimes when we make changes in our lives it has a tumbling effect - such as any natural change.

Our change came when we just recognized a pattern of spending that was wasteful. We felt compelled to make some deliberate changes. One of those changes was getting rid of Direct TV, getting a Firestick and utilizing Hulu, Amazon Video, music channels and Netflix for less than a quarter of what we were paying. Thus affecting our budget positively.

I wasn't sure I would enjoy this way of viewing, even balking a little  - I was sure it was going to irritate me - it was a deliberate way to watch TV, but over time I find I enjoy it so much more.




For one, I don't have to waddle through commercials, I can choose to watch my shows at my convenient times without having to record it, and the TV is not just running for noise or company, as I once called it.

We don't watch the news like we used to - we google and listen to podcasts or live streams - obtain what…

I Had Abandoned Life Here

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I am back.

We (Matthew & I) made some major life changes.
And I decided to place-mat some goals here for the next month and see where I hit.
#1 - Take up one new activity
#2 - Read 2 new books
#3 - Meet up with 2 Friends outside of work (yes- I am a recluse when I am off work)
#4 - Plan our Anniversary Trip
#5- Work on Book (at least 2 new chapters)
I want to use this as my brain storm room so anything can go - I categorize too much and don't just break free and enjoy.

Why did I leave? I love it here.
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Who Would You Choose?

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Which fictional character (TV, movie, or literature) would you most want to be friends with...and why?
I have always had a list of literary/fictional characters that I would want to be pals with: 


Elizabeth Bennet - Who stands boldly for what she believes in a topsy~turvy world; she has a strong sense of justice. I admire her literary prowess, her endeavor to serve right and good, despite the losses, and the strength of her love for those who are blessed enough to receive it.

Jane Eyre - The love of Mr Rochester because he represented 'home' to her and the banter they shared was delightful. She was given a depth of character that goes beyond the book's pages. I also adore that her desire is not money, and when she comes into it, it does not redefine her, all that matters to her is love and life. She is really classy when she came from such a dark place. 



Anne Shirley - She day dreamed and built worlds within her world. I did the same as a child, always feeling trapped…

It's THAT morning

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To The Moon and Back Again!

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Three Thirty am, on September 6, 2015, I packed and jumped into my car and raced off to NY state, to Dansville Hospital, to Kayleen - my baby - who was having my very first grand child.
I would receive a call from her a little before 7am. Excited I asked - "Did you have him yet?" She giggled and replied that she was having camel back contractions and although she had wanted to go completely natural- she had no choice - she opted for medicine to rest a little before she had to push. She has slept some and Justin was taking a small nap beside her and she called me.
The waiting room held Justin's mom, Hailey's mom, Hailey and Sarah Mae - always my soldier daughter, always there for her sister. But Kayleen called me. That meant the world to me and I told her so. We chatted about what to expect and confirmed the journey was worth it.  She thanked me and I told her that she was an awesome daughter and she is going to be an incredible mom, I was right.
An hour …

Torn in half

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Dad is on Hospice now.
My daughter is 2 weeks away from her due date.

Happy - sad.




I have two extremes in my life right now.
I have decided not to let either run into the other. I will be sad for my dad when the time comes and be elated for my grandchild when he arrives.

We believe in a Kingdom that will bring us all together one day and that hope resides deep within me to carry me through the hard times.

I have a job with heavy deadlines - the newspaper business is not stress free - it has its moments but it keeps my mind occupied. I need that.

I am excited to teach the little one new things - mom mom things and to introduce him to a world of exciting realms. I have already derived a mental list a creative bin all divvied into age categories. I am excited and fearful for this little guy coming into a world that is so jumbled. But I will welcome him with hugs and kisses and squeezes.

I will rest on that for now.
Dad will meet him I hope - if not it will be my duty to introduce…