Torn in half

Dad is on Hospice now.
My daughter is 2 weeks away from her due date.

Happy - sad.




I have two extremes in my life right now.
I have decided not to let either run into the other. I will be sad for my dad when the time comes and be elated for my grandchild when he arrives.

We believe in a Kingdom that will bring us all together one day and that hope resides deep within me to carry me through the hard times.

I have a job with heavy deadlines - the newspaper business is not stress free - it has its moments but it keeps my mind occupied. I need that.

I am excited to teach the little one new things - mom mom things and to introduce him to a world of exciting realms. I have already derived a mental list a creative bin all divvied into age categories. I am excited and fearful for this little guy coming into a world that is so jumbled. But I will welcome him with hugs and kisses and squeezes.

I will rest on that for now.
Dad will meet him I hope - if not it will be my duty to introduce him in pictures and stories.
But I have hope.







Comments

  1. NancyAugust 17, 2015 at 8:55 PM

    The tide comes in, and goes out. It brings new things and takes treasures with it when it leaves.

    ReplyDelete
  2. Whispered PromisesAugust 19, 2015 at 7:36 AM

    Yes it does.

    ReplyDelete
  3. UnknownAugust 19, 2015 at 11:26 AM

    Yes and sometimes life is never the same again....

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